Rollercoaster

2.5 weeks left and I am READY to be done!

Last weekend was rough. My check ins sucked after a weeks of being pale, flat and constantly being critiqued on posing. Then to be at my teammates show and seeing how good everyone looks reality had me discouraged. I knew I was going to have to step it up, immediately.

I’m currently busting my ass with last minute posing changes and trying to get my suit to fit perfectly without trying it on too much.

Check ins are wild. They dropped my food which I was NOT expecting. My weight dropped back down a couple lbs right away and now I check in again tomorrow and have NO idea what to expect. They said coasting into the show and I didn’t know they meant ROLLER COASTING 🤣. Regardless of what they say, it’s only 17 more days. I can do anything for 17 days. We are almost there. Might be the longest 17 days of my life haha.

I’m terrified for the show. Mainly because I just want to feel confident. I’m glad I was able to get a glimpse of things and ideas of what to work on but I still feel so blind to how I will look on stage and scared to how I’m going to feel mentally that day!

Praying for confidence, pride and NO shakes!

Also, my check ins from Monday…can’t even believe it’s me.