In my selfish era

2025 The year of ME

Unless you’ve ever loved an addict, you’ve probably never heard these words.

“It’s not about you.”

I cannot tell you how many times in my life I’ve had to hear those words. Even while pregnant. Even as a child.

I’ll never forget my first time at Al-anon when I asked “when will I matter?” And they said never. I immediately decided I refuse to accept that.

This year is about ME.

I finally have stability in my life and the safety I deserve. I can finally do something for myself.

Doing a bikini competition requires a level of selfishness that I’d never been able to ever consider in my past.

Today I thank God for so many answered prayers and a husband who is allowing me to be put on a pedestal for once in my life. 🥹

19.5 weeks out!