Day 9- imposter syndrome

I honestly can’t believe it has only been 9 days. The first few days REALLY felt defeating. Luckily I was able to utilize the food swap calculator and get creative with adding more variety to my diet. The weekends seem to be slightly easier for me because the days are shorter and I can stay busy. Work just plain sucks.

Friday I had my first ever posing class and I was SO nervous. I started the day feeling low because I have noticed a bit of muscle loss. On top of that, I hadn’t done my hair or makeup in days. I’ve been so focused on meal prep that I let myself go. Well when you look like shit you feel like shit. So I made sure to get my tan, do my hair and makeup before my posing class. I’m so glad I did! It helped a lot!

The class was INSANE. I had to hold the front pose for 30 minutes while she critiqued and encouraged to twist more and bend more. I was SHAKING from fatigue. What the hell did I sign up for and how will I do this on stage?! After the class I was couch ridden for a good hour but then jumped right back into practicing. I woke up the next day more sore than I have ever been in my entire life. But I still kept practicing what I learned. You guys I am so proud and in shock. I will post a side by side of my last check in to last night. I cannot wait to check in Thursday and show my coach my posing improvement. The pic on the right was last week, left last night 🤦🏼‍♀️

I am holding onto so much hope that we get to increase my carbs in a few days and maybe some cheat meals in the future! All of this has been so overwhelming and humbling. This sport is not easy. I don’t know how I will ever be good enough to step on stage but just seeing my 2 day progress, and knowing I have 9 more months to grow and learn, has me excited.

-Lindsey