24 weeks out

We are 24 weeks out and things are starting to feel CLOSE. Like shit is about to get REAL crazy and preppy here soon. I am trying to mentally prepare the best I can by just putting all my trust in God to carry me through this season.

My confidence goes up and down but I would say lately it’s pretty low. I haven’t seen much growth and I’m just terrified of not having the muscle I need. Which is CRAZY coming from someone who lifts so much and has been doing this as long as I have! I am doing my part at 100% and trusting my coaches to be feeding me appropriately in my offseason for the perfect amount of muscle once I cut but I really won’t know until that cut happens! I just gotta keep the faith and pray pray pray on it. I’ve worked so damn hard for years, something’s gotta be there!

With all that being said, this sport absolutely consumes me. It’s all I think about, and all I do. If I’m not training or meal prepping or sleeping, I’m on Reddit, tik tok, comp Facebook groups, IG looking at posing and prep stuff. I get so obsessive over my goals, I am curious to see how things go after the show. I wish I could say I’ll be one and done but I have a really hard time quitting anything.

I am excited. Nervous. Overwhelmed. Stressed. Delusional. Doubtful.